Daze.
post 25.
10cm - Beautiful. eye sockets sore. tired, bet when i lay on the bed- ill roll around till the morning. what a shame, beautiful sleeping time going to waste because of insomnia. woo; trying this new optimistic bullshit~ well so far so good.
am i good?
post 24.
The six strands that covers my forehead is bothering meeeee~ but whatever! dressed up to go on a date with the boyfran♥ then got dropped off at my friends party, which was fun. SINGING my throat out~ woowoo. im so tired man!!! lol cant wait to wake up at 8 in the morning on a sunday.
post 23.
i am back. new me, new boyfran, new stress. oh the joy of stress is back~ yay for stress fuck. it’s fucking 5:30 in the morning waiting for my nail polish to dry. my life can’t be better ♥
bipolarism.
post 22.
why am i going up and down. im tired. let me be in peace. geez. GET OUT OF MY HEAD, like SERIOUSLY.
aigoo.
post 21.
ㅉㅉ. LOL. oh man, now i feel relieved. over with jason, hard feelings over with this other person. goodness can my life get anymore comforting? LOL this is forreals. its so weird that im over it…. already;; maybe its bc i kept thinking about it, that i just went through the whole thing in a few days? well yeah, im sad but im also free! lol. shit didnt go to church bc i woke up like 30 minutes ago… im so lame hahaha this is sad. haven’t been to church since like…. EVERRRR -,-;;; sorry… GOD! : <
im good.
post 20.
smile, smile, smile. its all going to be okay :- D kinda hard to pretend im okay though. but time ill pass!!! goodness~ be lively and be happy. dont think about being depressed and saddness. since im having loads of stress, for now i just want to be crazy and not think about my depression. i didnt hear what i wanted, but staying as a friend- it satisfied me, and since i said it, i will not go on my words. there are good men in good places and bad men all over the places. just got to search in deep. LOL
after break up.
post 19.
i miss Jason so much, but i have to pretend that i dont :- ( i want him back, i pray to get him back. hes so important to me. and its just gone. when i think about im i feel so unsure and not comfortable :< i wish i can change myself to someone he likes me. what can i do to make him like me again? im so lost @_@.
break up.
post 18.
well, i broke up with him. and honestly im not okay. even though i say i am okay. this is not how i planned everything. i planned to stay with him. i love him. i asked to be friends with him only so that i’ll think that i’ll be okay. but i think im just being a bother to him, i cant stop. this is so sad. i want to control myself. even though im so hurt, i cant stop. this situation is making me legit physically weak. i feel like im going to throw up, im nervous all the time, when ever i stand up- im about to faint. this is making me feel miserable. goodness i cant even type or talk straight. im not even sure if this makes sense. on facebook i had to fix my status a couple of times just to make it correct. right now all i can do is laugh and smile just to not show what i feel. the fake me is hurting me more LOL i cant believe im so dramatic like this -+- please. let me wake up and fully understand that he doesn’t want me and that hes not the right guy for me.
cramps.
post 17.
oh man oh man, its been raining for 3 whole days now. it is currently 5:20 AM and is currently bleeding out of my fucking VJ. what a pleasant feeling…. my ass. my tummy hurts so much from the cramps. Dear periods, why do you have to hurt us innocent females and come every month. i wish there was a machine that stopped period, but when you are ready for a baby; just go back into the machine and whalaa~ your period is back. Stupid Stupid mother nature ( curse youuu!!! ) damn the girl in the picture makes me want her body to be mine every second i see it. It makes me sad, how i can never be like that, because… I LOVE FOOD! and theres nothing that can be helped. Aigu, feeling depressed makes me feel dizzy and nauseated. i dont feel like eating but granny keeps making yummy foods! i swear after i eat all her yummy food! i WILL go on a strict DIET and be skinny!!! D-: and for the past 2 days ive been addicted to 나윤권 - 기대; makes me want to cry LOL!
nvm.
post 16.
change of plans. going to Allen? Allan?, Texas. there for about 2 weeks how lovely. update then : ) see tumblr then. so tired right now.
